MexMongo

I was born a few days before the day I was supposed to be and I lost the time when I should've grown somewhere in between I am small but as big as can be is how you see me like a sun as I burn and blaze there is hollow gas within me When the fields lay flat I will till them with my hands when the walls hang down I will push them up again As the house comes in I will shore up all our shelter Every cave in means A new path to explore I was found in a pile of leaves the day you picked me up like a memory that we both forgotten somewhere in between I am old but as young as can be when you laugh with me like a sun as you spin through space ca

there is dust along the edges where we plot our long return, gathered cobwebs in the creases ash from fires long out burned ancient skin in green patina cracks along the curves copper shimmers deep beneath us all the angles we unlearn there are joints beneath the marble when our mouths are full again full of fear and full of promise guilt and anticipation new skin pink beneath the flaking tender touch of lips on flesh blood to fill our aching stomachs starved we eat ourselves to death

I crash down from orbit at the designated time in the designated place and eject from the capsule My John Glenn body a senator in a flame retardant suit of wires and catheters and connection points Every limb moves with deliberate energy and willful force I am still submerged in the swimming pool in full regalia I Buzz, Aldrin and adrenaline pulsing through me my eyes a blur of colors swirling too fast and measured in units of gravity Each step a small one muscles aching as though a giant leap from floorboard to floorboard the sea of tranquility before me a cool toned kitchen lightbulb looming on the horizon Inching toward my destination with

We are reading the second canto of Don Juan, and your jaw cuts through my flesh like a razor, painless and warm and consuming, I'm unable to focus on the words, your stubble coarse and heavy like sandpaper on the new and supple wood of the drunk girl that you're so madly in love with the beautiful soul of this week, working her body with your hard muscles until she is hollow like a canoe, her center burnt out by your heat. Your smile is wholesome and boyish like in an old photograph of me and my neighbors covered in mud from the creek behind my house, and sometimes your eyes hold so much pain and brilliance I am shaken, I would hold you in m

This first time I died, it was by accident. Not a deliberate leap of phone cord neck looped faith or a well devised Elliott Smith on the stereo scheme but an accident. My body, a healthy husk for twenty years fed up from running the gauntlet of living for too long unthanked, decided that now was the time for action: my blood cells, white warriors lined up in Napoleonic columns marched right up to my pancreas and said "not anymore friend, you're finished in this town". And so for months I withered, unaware of my own sabotage, reveling in the compliments of "wow have you lost weight" and "jeez you look so fit" and "Jathan, are you alright? You'

There are shapes in the siding On the house out by the school They are distant wild and hungry I can sense that they are cruel There are new trees in the clearing On the path down by the tracks They bend down but they are fearless Tiny timbers with aching backs We are lost and we are freezing Running circles under our eyes And I can feel your pupils tighten Deep black needle pointed knives Let me brace my body upright Like a shelter from the wind Huddle down against my branches Humble tree trunks built of skin There are monsters in the windows On the apartments by the river They are happy always laughing I can hear them dance all night Th

we were hanging out on the roof of an abandoned house at a party once so I was contemplating jumping off and you were getting drunk or you had gotten drunk or you were always drunk all I recall is you were humming something ancient and you wanted to get off then I was leaning toward the edge and you were breathing against my neck like some kind of snorkel but I am nothing I am vapor so you'll end up dead and we will laugh right out loud about this whole thing years from now but we will have different walls and different floors and different people to laugh with about it hey I guess this old house is burning oh let it burn down cause

rippling muscle careening over bone like an avalanche dark as night your thighs like towers looming at the waters edge your shoulders unwavering toe to toe with gravity somehow still in the fight my St Augustine tshirt clinging to you like a second skin there is a secret in this room threatening desperately to cave us in your St Christopher medallion dragging me to the bottom of the bay there is something sinister about our little house burning brightly like a beacon on our way liquid anguish rolling over flesh some great deluge thick as cream my hands like burs catching on the passing scenery my footsteps faltering cheek to cheek with des

Every sentence ends in modifying words absolutely Your touch is a marathon of blood running through me I burn a road flare in the wind I squirm an animal at birth We dance an anchor in the earth Entranced a mountain caving in Every angle curves in autoclaving turns antiseptic Your smile is matted blur of signals shaking me epileptic I burn a road flare in the wind I squirm an animal at birth We dance an anchor in the earth Entranced a mountain caving in

Like a knife cuts in reality You tore into the driveway A little sloppy and not quite straight But with the full force of a razor blade There was malice in your eye makeup I could feel it from the steps You conjured fire in every shallow breath I'm a wild ensnared thing gnawing myself to death I've got An overabundance of under oxygenated blood And you've got a birthmark from every time I lose my temper And there is a cutout Made of cardboard Of a man in the garage And he's stronger Than we are I promise You raised lightning from your palms Hurled it quick and true I might have ducked in time I don't know The air was thick and vacant you ha